December BAby..

Joy to the world

The Lord has come..

These two sentences from one mof all time fav xmas song..><, hehe..which i must say berulang-ulang kali terbayang kt palak..well,the rest of the lyric is forgotten..(doe,padah all time fav tek..)..

Oh, 1st thing 1st, dear blog,im sorry i have been ignorant for past 4 months ..well, busy,lazy ,tired or just plain forget to to update you..lemme tell what i have n=been through since August 2010.As you know, im now at my 3rd posting..did i tell you i finish my surgery & medicine posting n now tgh khusyuk embracing O & G..To tell the truth surgery is the most enjoying posting of all.why?no procedures to be completed..I miss the time just go to the ward only for learning purpose.hmmm..Medicine is the toughest of all..acknowledge by all of my friends and seniors.If my tears aint mahal,i cry dy since the last day of EOPME..but thank God,i pass both..(can you believe that??) lagi lah i want to cry because i dont deserve to lulus medicine pun..ignorant,stuff,lazy..plain stupid..)huhu...

Now,i currently struggling to complete watching deliveries and episiotomies.hmm..yes,building rapport is important..ya,fuck off..some staff and student nurse(student jer pun) acting bitching around.Two person perdeliveries? come on..when you can actually see it just like that..its the student nurse yang ,elambak..yet due to bakal jejak langkah,terus dibenarkan banyak2..we?/come on la..when did i ever offend you guys??gimme space ler..

Sibu mali oo

Its been 1 months plus since i first step my feet at sibu..yup,tasting kampua n kompia..what else i shud do...eat at kedai pondan also done..birthday got eat secret recipe(i know,its been some kind of tradition)..nowaday,my face jmpa patients at Sibu hospital like everyday yeah!!haha..

So what else shud i do at sibu?any suggestion?haha

end of 2nd year..

today is Tuesday 27th aptril 2010

yup,my second year is goin to finish another 2 days more..woohooo~~, looking back,i think proffesional exam is quite easy(since im passing it anyway) ..quite busy with research..seriously..hoho..and we just finish our oral presentation and our poster would be judged on Thursday later..after that..astalavista..adios my second year..haha

Money..money..money..Where on earth am i going to get them without sooo much effort..Books..All cost nearly Rm1000 for my 3rd year first 2 postings ..car..clothes..hoho..Saboru would always said he might dont have time for me next sem onward..but its me actually would probably 'abandon' him..hehe..seriously..haha..

I think balik rumah later i would try to bersihkan my father's quarter kaw kaw baru i minta Rm600 from my father to buy buku..i know its kolot but if its do makes me fel right,i'll do it..haha..

stresssssssssssssssssss~~~~~~~

OMG>.esok dah mok exam besar!!!IM HAVING THOSE-STUPID-SYMPTOMS-STRESS-RELATED..IM fucking hate this moment..I HATE IT WHEN I KNOW THAT I AM INCAPABLE TO DO MY BEST!!huhu..better menulis list mok polah apa AFTer exam..if that would make my tarchycardia goes away!!

soo..this is what i really look like now at 3.19pm..god bless me

please.....im not being ignorant...im not being curang as what you might think..i juz scared n not ready to meet your father..n dont do PRANK on me next time..This is the situation where i think i dont want your apology but dont expect mine if i did things beyond our control..

dinner,princess n dslr.

Okay,i bought a dslr a day before my college dinner and i am truly being a princess..hahha..my first time wearing such a dress n did my hair at saloon..hmmm...what am i trying to provee...NOTHING!!haha.. lets just said it is metamorphosis people..haha..where i am upgrading my quality of live..

okay,nuff said..here are the picz

i hope when you who read this post of mine,let this post remain confidential n undiscussable..What goes around come around..again the proverb proved it once again..the proverb means that whatever one person do somthing to other,he also one day will get the same treatment..i found out from the person'twitter n blog that now mainly consist of-broken-hearted-cry-bloody-tears posts. The lover left the person(shall i say dump?) ..as a bystander, i could not stop n stare as the person once pass my immature heart..juz i could not forget how it ended n now the person is having the same situation but as a victim not the villain...

EMPATHY?yes..i feel sad n i feel gembira at same time..sad because the person are not yet found whom meant for him and happy because "shame on you ,you MOTHAFUCKA!!!!" for what u did to me last time..*laughing evil*

You who dreamt a lot about your future ,but when your reality suck,you emotionally died..not so..maybe emotionally comatose..and started to think that maybe your future aint gonna be perfect anymore since you lost some piece of you but lemme tell you..another girl will always open your heart and you will be able to dream a happy future again..that actually,those missing part of you regenerate again..

That is what i learnt..i cnat say anything more..one day you will always find your happy ending..

♥ When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. LIVE YOUR LIFE so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying. ♥ :)

i found this at my fb frens post..yup,it did touch my heart way deep inside.But then,i still wondering that to live my live the way that i like is wat ar?.Yes if you ask me 2 years ago what i want in my life ,it will be simple life with enough money to earn...I even think to start working and not going to university..Back then,i think money played big roles and if i got money i'd be able to help my family and buy what i want..plus the satisfaction of geting own money..

2 years later,here i am..a medical student with own elauns.Until now i am very grateful of what i achieved today..yes,i really like to admit that i am overachiever of what i want.This live is way more high n once upon time,i dont dare to dream i can live my life this way..Yes,it suck to study but i loved how i can insert many things that i really like to do..shopping,internet..to be able to be more superior than others.

I hopefully want to graduate from here and then help peoples.There will be always connection between me and the sick people..Since i am 20 years old and i see alot of death surround me..that kinda influence me of what i am today..

negativity slope of the result..

okay..my prestasi kin menurun..KENAK???????bulak l mun pdah x blaja..i suppose to do better..no distraction last tym since my love balik sibu for cuti..tetiba hati terasa pedih yang amat sangat..yah..i lost to my rumet..1st time ever i lost to my rumet..n i afraid it will be always like this later..NNOOOOOO!!!i cant let this happen..Gootta find ways to fixed myself back up!!!blaja lg la jes..you can do it..this is your future..you can do it!!!

NERDiMAniac

facebooking aint my main interest nowdays..im more to READINGGGGG~~!!..gosh,everytime on9 go to my fav website to read..YUp,it is not books that i read(well sometime if got sources i do read books..hee) I read the freelancer novelists short story..there is a lot of those websites that offers these online reading things...but now im stick to WATTPAD..there's a lot of teenager who is so want to kill themselves by imagining themselves become slaves to vampires!!i know..its sound stupid of them but hey they sumtime wrote very nice..i used to go to mills and boon befoe but eventually i read all the story avaiable there so..hemmm haha..yeah i know im freaking geek now..haha..but i love it..

FUCKING HUTANG!!

i just got letter from AGENSI KUTIPAN HUTANG telling me that i have MYR 226.20 to pay yet with FUCKING Telekom...urghhh..this is the second warning dy n my stupid ex stepmother NEVA eva have the gut to give those letter..I nearly bankrupt cant they see that!???

urgh...esok im goin to pay the hutang..the hutang that i initially NEVA use pun..urgh..unefficient Telekom will always unefficient

questions

If I fell off tomorrow would you still love me?
If I didn't smell so good would you still hug me?
If I got locked up and sentenced to a quarter century,
Could I count on you to be there to support me mentally?
If I went back to a Wira from a Mercedes 3 series, would you poof and disappear like
some of my friends?
If I was hit and I was hurt would you be by my side?
If it was time to put in work would you be down to ride?

If I ain't become manager 'cause I flipped burgers at Burger King
would you be ashamed to tell your friends you feelin' me?
In the bed if I used my tongue would you like that?
If I wrote you a love letter would you write back?
Now we can have a lil' drink you know a nightcap
And we could go do what you like, I know you like that

Now would you leave me if you're father found out I was nuthin?
Do you believe me when I tell you, you the one I'm loving?
Are you mad 'cause I'm asking you questions?
Are you my soulmate? 'Cause if so, girl you a blessing
Do you trust me enough, to tell me your dreams?

If I was down would you say things to make me smile?
I treat you how you want to be treated just teach me how
If I was with some other chick and someone happened to see?
And when you asked me about it I said it wasn't me
Would you believe me? Or up and leave me?
How deep is our bond if that's all it takes for you to be gone?
We're only humans girl we make mistakes, to make it up I do whatever it take
I love you like a fat kid loves cake
You know my style I say anything to make you smile

If its you who sing it..hell yeah i waannaaa lurve you owez!!!

Mr LO looking for Miss VE

Alamak..pa mok jd tok?merata-rata org breakup nowadays..guys,cant you wait after valentine day is over?hee..but hey,usually i dont bother by that..im not the type the one who digs ppl secrets..ppl want to tell i listen but if you dont wanna tell im ok..hee.

Mr saboru,i miss u so much..muah3x..

I promise we stay strong together..hehe

I love...YOUUUUU