jes n life..^_^

I dont get you!!

2011-04-02T13:31:00.002+08:00

yesterday in the car while picking up my sister, the first thing you did is you were LATE to pick me ..and as soon as i entered the car,you said hi and then,you started your melancholic of life story..started how you were not getting sleep more than 3 hours in past 2 days doing assignment,FYP and etc...yes ,i could noticed the eyebag under your eyes and how you really look ill and tired not forgetting how you shrunk in the PDI shirt i gave you last year.Then you asked me whether we can go print your assignment and handed it immedietly to your lecturer.i agreed and while driving passing UNIMAS gate ,you grabbed your hp and started texting WHILE driving..and being suprised with the busy and awkwardness you multitasking,i offered to handle the stereng while you control the brake and accelerator..then while you handed the task ,my sister called asking where am i.Telling her im at UNIMAS was not first in my mind..but i told her anyway expecting a scold but luckily she was alright and not mad.she shouldnt be mad with ppl who helping her but when you are pregnant ,i have bit doubt there.

so you were stranded 20 minutes at the office and came down saying how your fyp was still in midway and not progressing despite so many effort and time you put on it.and to make matter worse you have the final presentation next friday which means exactly 7 days ahead. i just kept quiet..deep down inside i was so ashamed of myself and guilty toward you for burdening you in such a day like this..i have license but too coward to drive in town..and i have to waste your time in helping me.if you asked me to to your presentation,i am gladly agreed.i have time,money,passion to do that currently.

the thing is, you are busy and want to play badminton to keep healthy and release stress..i agreed.you need badminton in your life more than anything else..i agreed though it might sting a bit.half of the journey we stayed quiet because the space were getting larger.but i decided to stay strong and be patient because if it helps you then you need to do it.so i said tomorrow we wont have to go out.you better do your fyp and finish up your assignment and get enough sleep.you seem happy and when i see happiness i was being hypocrit for im smilling watching you happy.

hypocrit??i know..when 3/4 of me wanted to bring you out and release both of your personal tension and the tension between us ,the other rest of me said this is for your future..and your future will hopefully still have me inside it..then it is important for me too.

today you woke up at noon,sleeping for 9 hours..i was relieved..you paid back your sleepless night.but mind me..im having headache for my menses.and im damn bored..when you told me you gonna played badminton again..it feel like rocks just fall to my head..do you have stress soo much that i even as your gf could not offer any solution to it?and while im writting this,it is not the only reason why i wrote..my head too painful to enable me to think and write..think?yes,im still thinking while im writing this..still erasing any exercebating things and only wrote the minimal of things..

Suicidal case of Late Sachess Qaspie

2011-04-01T22:16:00.004+08:00

yes,it is pathetic that im writing on April Fool for the first post of 2011!! it is just that i cant stand being on holiday..yeah,whats wrong with me when it comes to holiday..idk..idk..

2 days ago,UNIMAS was surely shocked to find a 21yo ,m,indian,sabah..JUMP!! to his death at the middle of the unimas bridge..to make this jump fatal,he put some bricks inside his backpack to ensure no coming back to the surface..and he did wrote some of his pre-death syndrome story at his blog,he even smsed his friend ,he WENT to his last lecture that morning..and NOBODY noticed whats wrong with him!!!

but after his death,i think his popularity jumped 1000%..suddenly all nearly 10k unimas student know his name,already assumption why he died spread and trust me,some those symphatized student still able to post at fb saying "if he came to me and told me his problem,he wont have to die"..are you kidding me???WTF??its like he blamed the victim for not looking for him..sorry mister,you are not sincere enough to be someone's shoulder to rely on..

but,i REALLY admire him and respect him (the victim of course!!) that he able to accomplish his suicidal mission.am i being cruel here?well,all of us (might that you who read this) have undergone various states of depression in our life that suicidal thought appeared but somehow first, we just say it aloud that we want to die but as you know,it is just a figure of speech,second we all are coward to do it..and when that deppresion states gone,we praised ourselves that we passed the worst scenario and not taking any fool step in which we jump and died or hang ourselves or slash th wrist blablabla ..do you see here,we blame the step to be a fool step just because we too coward to do it...and because of that,i salute the him for not saying it is a fool step and just go with it..

yes,yes..he might went to hell since suicidal is very wrong in every religion..but he as far as i know regained blessing and symphaty from all of those people who know him before and after the incident ..thanks to media for spreading and increasing the blessing anyway..

so this post is dedicate to late Sachess Qaspie..you are a hero in your own world..you opened a lot of eyes and minds with your action..you are the one where i would proudly to say "YOU DID IT!!"..may you rest in peace ..

December BAby..

2010-12-15T12:28:00.002+08:00

Joy to the world

The Lord has come..

These two sentences from one mof all time fav xmas song..><, hehe..which i must say berulang-ulang kali terbayang kt palak..well,the rest of the lyric is forgotten..(doe,padah all time fav tek..)..

Oh, 1st thing 1st, dear blog,im sorry i have been ignorant for past 4 months ..well, busy,lazy ,tired or just plain forget to to update you..lemme tell what i have n=been through since August 2010.As you know, im now at my 3rd posting..did i tell you i finish my surgery & medicine posting n now tgh khusyuk embracing O & G..To tell the truth surgery is the most enjoying posting of all.why?no procedures to be completed..I miss the time just go to the ward only for learning purpose.hmmm..Medicine is the toughest of all..acknowledge by all of my friends and seniors.If my tears aint mahal,i cry dy since the last day of EOPME..but thank God,i pass both..(can you believe that??) lagi lah i want to cry because i dont deserve to lulus medicine pun..ignorant,stuff,lazy..plain stupid..)huhu...

Now,i currently struggling to complete watching deliveries and episiotomies.hmm..yes,building rapport is important..ya,fuck off..some staff and student nurse(student jer pun) acting bitching around.Two person perdeliveries? come on..when you can actually see it just like that..its the student nurse yang ,elambak..yet due to bakal jejak langkah,terus dibenarkan banyak2..we?/come on la..when did i ever offend you guys??gimme space ler..

Sibu mali oo

2010-08-01T15:19:00.002+08:00

Its been 1 months plus since i first step my feet at sibu..yup,tasting kampua n kompia..what else i shud do...eat at kedai pondan also done..birthday got eat secret recipe(i know,its been some kind of tradition)..nowaday,my face jmpa patients at Sibu hospital like everyday yeah!!haha..

So what else shud i do at sibu?any suggestion?haha

end of 2nd year..

2010-04-27T18:44:00.003+08:00

today is Tuesday 27th aptril 2010

yup,my second year is goin to finish another 2 days more..woohooo~~, looking back,i think proffesional exam is quite easy(since im passing it anyway) ..quite busy with research..seriously..hoho..and we just finish our oral presentation and our poster would be judged on Thursday later..after that..astalavista..adios my second year..haha

Money..money..money..Where on earth am i going to get them without sooo much effort..Books..All cost nearly Rm1000 for my 3rd year first 2 postings ..car..clothes..hoho..Saboru would always said he might dont have time for me next sem onward..but its me actually would probably 'abandon' him..hehe..seriously..haha..

I think balik rumah later i would try to bersihkan my father's quarter kaw kaw baru i minta Rm600 from my father to buy buku..i know its kolot but if its do makes me fel right,i'll do it..haha..

stresssssssssssssssssss~~~~~~~

2010-04-04T15:10:00.003+08:00

OMG>.esok dah mok exam besar!!!IM HAVING THOSE-STUPID-SYMPTOMS-STRESS-RELATED..IM fucking hate this moment..I HATE IT WHEN I KNOW THAT I AM INCAPABLE TO DO MY BEST!!huhu..better menulis list mok polah apa AFTer exam..if that would make my tarchycardia goes away!!

soo..this is what i really look like now at 3.19pm..god bless me

2010-03-27T00:30:00.002+08:00

please.....im not being ignorant...im not being curang as what you might think..i juz scared n not ready to meet your father..n dont do PRANK on me next time..This is the situation where i think i dont want your apology but dont expect mine if i did things beyond our control..

dinner,princess n dslr.

2010-03-24T19:45:00.003+08:00

Okay,i bought a dslr a day before my college dinner and i am truly being a princess..hahha..my first time wearing such a dress n did my hair at saloon..hmmm...what am i trying to provee...NOTHING!!haha.. lets just said it is metamorphosis people..haha..where i am upgrading my quality of live..

okay,nuff said..here are the picz

2010-03-24T19:22:00.002+08:00

i hope when you who read this post of mine,let this post remain confidential n undiscussable..What goes around come around..again the proverb proved it once again..the proverb means that whatever one person do somthing to other,he also one day will get the same treatment..i found out from the person'twitter n blog that now mainly consist of-broken-hearted-cry-bloody-tears posts. The lover left the person(shall i say dump?) ..as a bystander, i could not stop n stare as the person once pass my immature heart..juz i could not forget how it ended n now the person is having the same situation but as a victim not the villain...

EMPATHY?yes..i feel sad n i feel gembira at same time..sad because the person are not yet found whom meant for him and happy because "shame on you ,you MOTHAFUCKA!!!!" for what u did to me last time..*laughing evil*

You who dreamt a lot about your future ,but when your reality suck,you emotionally died..not so..maybe emotionally comatose..and started to think that maybe your future aint gonna be perfect anymore since you lost some piece of you but lemme tell you..another girl will always open your heart and you will be able to dream a happy future again..that actually,those missing part of you regenerate again..

That is what i learnt..i cnat say anything more..one day you will always find your happy ending..

2010-01-29T20:36:00.002+08:00

♥ When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. LIVE YOUR LIFE so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying. ♥ :)

i found this at my fb frens post..yup,it did touch my heart way deep inside.But then,i still wondering that to live my live the way that i like is wat ar?.Yes if you ask me 2 years ago what i want in my life ,it will be simple life with enough money to earn...I even think to start working and not going to university..Back then,i think money played big roles and if i got money i'd be able to help my family and buy what i want..plus the satisfaction of geting own money..

2 years later,here i am..a medical student with own elauns.Until now i am very grateful of what i achieved today..yes,i really like to admit that i am overachiever of what i want.This live is way more high n once upon time,i dont dare to dream i can live my life this way..Yes,it suck to study but i loved how i can insert many things that i really like to do..shopping,internet..to be able to be more superior than others.

I hopefully want to graduate from here and then help peoples.There will be always connection between me and the sick people..Since i am 20 years old and i see alot of death surround me..that kinda influence me of what i am today..

negativity slope of the result..

2010-01-28T22:21:00.003+08:00

okay..my prestasi kin menurun..KENAK???????bulak l mun pdah x blaja..i suppose to do better..no distraction last tym since my love balik sibu for cuti..tetiba hati terasa pedih yang amat sangat..yah..i lost to my rumet..1st time ever i lost to my rumet..n i afraid it will be always like this later..NNOOOOOO!!!i cant let this happen..Gootta find ways to fixed myself back up!!!blaja lg la jes..you can do it..this is your future..you can do it!!!

NERDiMAniac

2010-01-27T20:55:00.002+08:00

facebooking aint my main interest nowdays..im more to READINGGGGG~~!!..gosh,everytime on9 go to my fav website to read..YUp,it is not books that i read(well sometime if got sources i do read books..hee) I read the freelancer novelists short story..there is a lot of those websites that offers these online reading things...but now im stick to WATTPAD..there's a lot of teenager who is so want to kill themselves by imagining themselves become slaves to vampires!!i know..its sound stupid of them but hey they sumtime wrote very nice..i used to go to mills and boon befoe but eventually i read all the story avaiable there so..hemmm haha..yeah i know im freaking geek now..haha..but i love it..

FUCKING HUTANG!!

2010-01-26T22:08:00.002+08:00

i just got letter from AGENSI KUTIPAN HUTANG telling me that i have MYR 226.20 to pay yet with FUCKING Telekom...urghhh..this is the second warning dy n my stupid ex stepmother NEVA eva have the gut to give those letter..I nearly bankrupt cant they see that!???

urgh...esok im goin to pay the hutang..the hutang that i initially NEVA use pun..urgh..unefficient Telekom will always unefficient

questions

2010-01-25T20:53:00.002+08:00

If I fell off tomorrow would you still love me?
If I didn't smell so good would you still hug me?
If I got locked up and sentenced to a quarter century,
Could I count on you to be there to support me mentally?
If I went back to a Wira from a Mercedes 3 series, would you poof and disappear like
some of my friends?
If I was hit and I was hurt would you be by my side?
If it was time to put in work would you be down to ride?

If I ain't become manager 'cause I flipped burgers at Burger King
would you be ashamed to tell your friends you feelin' me?
In the bed if I used my tongue would you like that?
If I wrote you a love letter would you write back?
Now we can have a lil' drink you know a nightcap
And we could go do what you like, I know you like that

Now would you leave me if you're father found out I was nuthin?
Do you believe me when I tell you, you the one I'm loving?
Are you mad 'cause I'm asking you questions?
Are you my soulmate? 'Cause if so, girl you a blessing
Do you trust me enough, to tell me your dreams?

If I was down would you say things to make me smile?
I treat you how you want to be treated just teach me how
If I was with some other chick and someone happened to see?
And when you asked me about it I said it wasn't me
Would you believe me? Or up and leave me?
How deep is our bond if that's all it takes for you to be gone?
We're only humans girl we make mistakes, to make it up I do whatever it take
I love you like a fat kid loves cake
You know my style I say anything to make you smile

If its you who sing it..hell yeah i waannaaa lurve you owez!!!

Mr LO looking for Miss VE

2010-01-25T20:47:00.002+08:00

Alamak..pa mok jd tok?merata-rata org breakup nowadays..guys,cant you wait after valentine day is over?hee..but hey,usually i dont bother by that..im not the type the one who digs ppl secrets..ppl want to tell i listen but if you dont wanna tell im ok..hee.

Mr saboru,i miss u so much..muah3x..

I promise we stay strong together..hehe

I love...YOUUUUU

2009-12-10T20:33:00.002+08:00

rite now im in the mood for powerful song...and of cuz its always be my charice pempengco songs that lift up my spirit..heee..such a magnificent song..how many time tears falling while listening to her voice..heeee

piknik n reunion~

2009-12-08T17:38:00.003+08:00

last khamis amoy ajak g piknik,well agak 2-3 juak tym pikir but i juz grab the oppurtunity to say yes(wat???byk nota bertimbun deng~)..why?ntah la,jes juz perlukan fresh air jak kot..staying in the room n no fun is worst day ever..i couldnt stand myself that tym oso..haha..n im pathetically terribly MISS him!! yes him...he who far away ..urghh..now i hate Disember..trust me,this is the first time ever i miss a living person like this..when the sun start to set dy,thats when tarchycardia occurs!yes,without definite reason..hand will be shaky n sweating..and tears tend to get shed very fast only by thinking of him..woowww..yes,he who are 1st to be able to strike a symphathetic response inside my body without any touching only by memory inside cerebral cortex..huhuhu...

n another part is the free food..actually its only me jer tak make food..hee..well,i dont even bring anything except my tammy..n to the end of picnic i so envy with those yang berenang..i became photographer jer..i know..hurts..haha..but michelle did brings my all time fav the sambal pedas!!i lurve it since smsk time..that time just mencubit jer while she offer,at matrix its become our rutin food..getting diarhea together..hahaa..wat a memories

well lets just see the pic ok..hehe..n last i balik awal becoz of guilty concious of not studying..damn patho tutorial..see,dring the sesiion,i only gven to say not more that 15 words jer..

heee..eh,maka mok cta part picnic..this picnic is somekind of small reunion to be exact only 13 ppl jer datang..others xpat dtg becoz to early(11pg pun too early kaa??)..and i get so excited..jumpa old friends which some i havent see them since the last day of taking SPM result!!..n obviously part of my joys is becoz i get to see michelle.my best buddy at matrix..its true we hardly talk during SMSK but hey im grateful still be gven to know her at matrix and puf!!we become best buddy!!..heee

To all my friends who i know

2009-11-04T21:47:00.002+08:00

"There comes a point in ur life when u realize who matters, who never did, who won't anymore, and who always will. So, don't worry about ppl from ur past, there's a reason why they didn't make it 2 ur future... =)"(Patrick Raj,2009)

So my friends,each of us lead a life ahead..this may be our last encounter or not,but we`re making memories out of these day.

"MEMORIES plays a very confusing ROLE... They make u LAUGH when u remember the time u CRIED.. BUT they will make u CRY when u remember the time u LAUGHED... =)"(patrick Raj ,2009)

2009-09-18T14:55:00.003+08:00

Girls are told a lot of stuff growing up,
If a guy punches you,he likes you,
Neva try to trim your own bangs
and someday you will meet a wonderful guy in your very happy ending,
Every movie we see,every story we're told implores us to wait for it,
for the third act twist,the unexpected declaration of love
The exception to the rule,
but, sometime we were so focused in finding our happy ending,
we dont learn how to read the signals
how to tell the ones who wants us from the one who dont
how to tell the ones who stay from the ones who will leave
or maybe the happy ending doesnt include a wonderful person,
maybe its you
on your own picking up the pieces and starting over
freeing yourself up for something better in future
maybe the happy ending is just moving on
or maybe the happy ending is this
knowing that through all the phones calls and broken hearts,
through all the blunders and misread signals,
through all the pain and embarassment
YOU NEVER EVER GAVE UP HOPE..

2009-09-17T09:23:00.002+08:00

dEar gOD, if He is Mine, make Him mine.
if He isN't, make Him miNe too.
if He is nOt meanT 4 me, maKe hIm miNe eithEr. but, if he is SomEbody's,
Let hiM be MiNe..

bCoz he Is Mine....

Especially for you

2009-09-11T18:15:00.003+08:00

Everything in life change you in some way,

Even the smallest things,

If you don't accept these changes,

You do not accept yourself.

For through these changes brings new and greater things to you,

Making you wiser as time progresses.

To avoid these changes is a loss

You only live your life once.

Do not waste a minute of it avoiding things.

Let them come to you, and learn from them.

There is always tomorrow..

huuu

2009-09-11T18:09:00.002+08:00

If u looked inside a girl,

You would see how much she really cries ,

You would find so many secrets and lots of lies

If only you could see deeper,

But what you'll see the most is how hard it is to stay strong ,

When nothing is right and everything is wrong....

stupid holidaee...

2009-08-17T22:08:00.002+08:00

i just fin my one week-sort-of holidae .The main reason i called it holiday becoz we dont have any medical-related class..but stupidly faculty juz unable to adjust the timetable properly that we got and must attend generic and complementary class..which is from monday to thursday ..urghhh!!if only got no clss long tym already i balik sri aman released my tension..(i miss home,really!!)

okay..this week also specialised to do proposal for research thing..my group(me,iqa,ing soon and lily) we are about to kill cats and watch types of flies would come to the carcass..(of course it create a lot of issues with animal lover but sory guy..this is what you called as research.haha..one of ways making thing impossible to possble) Luckily we fin our proposal on tuesday and nothing went wrong ..hahah

during holiday i got nothing to do except bangun tido,mandi go for g n c class and mandi n gudnyt everyone..tido for 12 hours memang syiok..hahaha..especially im getting used to it.well theres nothing to do also maa..

Well,there`s some thing i regret during the holiday..feeling so wasteful jer..got lesen but no car to drive around..got a lot of shopping complex but no money to spend for it..mmostly got boyfriend who happpens to have car,money but no time to cari me..because like i said about the timetable earlier..when im free,thats when he busy mcm businessman..couldnt blame him..since he also got a lot of hard time becoz of me..(remember jes dont be so bengkeng and dont buat those puppy sad voice okay!!)..wish i could turn back the time and done something to make things better..(really!!)..im sorry bie..huhu

nowaday im becoming more cautious of what i say,what i do,and try to behave like not the demand type..the result=im becoming more quiet and quickly end up the conversation trying to fight back my tears..its hard to talk with bitter memory and bitter heart..no matter how we try to cheer up the situation,i still remembered the other side of him..which makes me scared to do anything like before..owh god puhlease erase the bad memory of him..i want to be like in 365 days before..where both of us try so hard to win each others heart eventhough we know we belong together..too bad..

Mohar ngn PBL

2009-07-28T09:38:00.005+08:00

I hate my PBL noweadays..Pa ko pikir ah NOrzaid..?????Ko ingat ko dah ada duit,da keja teatp,da bini,da anak,dpt polah bnda bgus alu ko pikir ko ya mentaliti tyinggi ka?????Suka ati ko hantam orang lain ..pa dak poalh suma salah..kunun nya pemikiran ko ya lihai la tek..soh org humble tp dimpun ya arrogant..anok org arrogant dmpun ya 2 kali 5..teruk g ada..
Biar jes senaraikan suma apa x puas ati ngn sikap norzaid ya..damn!!!

P ny kutuk org:nganok natrajan lambat masuk pbl..alu dpdah clubbing
pa nya mpun polah:x penah2 ko ya hbiskan sesi pbl ngn mekowg kowh..gne ko mok bik markah mun certain org jak sempat klaka

pa nya kutuk org:penampilan org x kemas..nektai nat x kemas rya alu berceramah
Pa nya mpun polah:tym nya bik "ceramah" tek,x sedar nektai dmpun x berikat alu jak..ko ya selek g bha

pa nya kutuk org:perangai jes nok arrogant la x hu8mble la gen produk doktor kin menurun la ngn adanya miak kedak mekowg
pa nya mpun poalh:ko ya arrogant ko.."intelligent peopla like me.."sapa ngankat ko ya jd pnde..ko ya sma jak ngn mekowg kowh..kimen.suka boasting ttg drik sendirik..ya ko padah humble tek..produk doktor menurun ntam generasi kitakowg..mekowg blom g jd doktor!!

pa nya kutuk org:x menerima pendapat org lain..suma org padah ko mok anok wak..
pa nya mpunm polah:pa ko tanya suma ng lari dri trigger pbl..critical thinking ko ya x berhasil..xda relevan ngn soalan mekowg..mun ko pande gilak knak ko x menang nobel prize kjak..

Keseluruhan nya,byk g mok kenak anok iak ya.surat aku ko lempar balit padh x ckup bukti????ko ya x mok bca hbs bukti ya bodoh!!nangla aku g jd manusia lekak dpt lesen ya bha..mcm la mun ku eskep pbl ya ku jd hantu trus!!!ko pdh aku patut MERAYUngn ko sak markah kedatangan aku x dipotong??ko ingt aku xda keja lain kah mok dipolah..org perangai cm ko ya xpatut dipandang pun..kimen...jes mohar palak babi kink tok!x pnah aku nangis ntam lecturer bodo cm ko..biar la ko potong tp ku pastikan ko potong cgek kedatangan kjak..ku hadir 15/16 sesi ko darabkn ngn 10% ..ya mesti ku dpt..mun ko potg lebih aku teragak2 g kelak...

worst saturdat nyt out

2009-07-28T09:18:00.002+08:00

Argghhh..im having so much of misfortune lately..It seems EVERYONE wanna mess with me or is it me who want to mess with them?..huuu
Started on last Saturday nyte after the JPK meeting..Went for dinner at Jalan song..Having damn fun when everyone (me,pris,rathika,renu n vino) were laughing and enjoying our supper.But when we arrived at the gate at 1230 am,the gate was closed already and the SON-OF-A-BITCH-SECURITY GUARD(btw the name is HUSSIN)...make DONo jer with me in front of the gater melambai him and pris did horn the car twice pun he make dono..SHIT!!!!until RAthika Calledc NAtrajan And PAtrick to ask the guard to buka the ggate and guess what he said.."Kunci bukan ngn aku..ngn Felo"..Ingat mekowg bodo gilak ka????shit!!bila padah felo diam luar terdiam alu defend ngn alasan lain ngnok dah 2nd year pun xtauk kah peraturan kolej...Ingat org mok gilak kah stuck rah jalan mun x jam ntam konsert AF ya?Lemme atur balit perbicaraan tym ya
"kenak lambat gilak dah mok kol 1 tok"
"mekowg rah ctok dar kol 1230 tek..ko ya pura2 x layan until mekowg tpaksa nunggah miak k nunggah ko soh bukak bha"
"boh mok bulak aku rah ctok tek dari kol 11 xda pun ku nangga kiorg"
"tadik aku lambae bha !!da ko nangga aku tapi ko pura2x layan..mekowh hon juak...pejkak ke apa"
"aku ingat ko org luar bha!"(take note ar..dah nangga tp x mok layan then pdah xda org nok lambe tp padahal kakya padah org luar la tek)
"Bole panjat ka paga tok?"
"boleh tp boh komplen....boh panjat"(padah jak sia xmok org komplen..maka mun mekowg pnjat pagar xda wak mok komplen..)
"xkan xmok bik muka pakcik..mekowg ompuan..dahla sejuk..bukan lambat sejam 2 pun.."
"bgus sgik mun aku masuk dalam pondok jak dr ngelayan kitakorg!"

Imagine weyh..HUssin banggang ya nang soiu!!!pris dah smpe rumah dah..terpaksa kol Bie untuk datang jemput..Mbak g hotel ,suma hotel full..merayu lok ngn hotel fullyin buk da bilit..kakya ATM suma upgrading...urgghhhh...i hate that HUssin..Kunci ada buka jak la owh..mekowg tima bha mun ko dah nganok mcmya..choui..tok dah la nganok alu x melayan g..kemmmakkk!!!

Birthday gurl...

2009-07-21T23:46:00.006+08:00

heee...lemme list down what i did for my 20th birthday..kinda shocking kan..but shssshhh dont tell anyone..hahah

2pm:Bie picked me up and sadly we found out my suppose to be last driving class is
cancelled..huhu..after that i gado with charles..damn him..
3-5pm:ngerayo rah satok..actuallly waitin for bie's resdung treatment yet the tauke soh a datang laen masa ntam full..NAsib Buruk kali ke dua!!

6-8pm:rehat rah hotel..mandi n berkemas..ready to get out!!beli tiket wayang n then buk g mamam sushi..minum sake(urghhh!!)yet service lambat giler..berekot ngabis makanan ntam mok catch movie..

930-12:habis movie and tada..HAppy besdae Jes!!!!!mata da eleng da nahan ngantok..thets when 30 sms datang wishing birthday..thanks guyS!!

20th July

8-1230:exam keta..tauk drikmkenak belot oleh miak pbl..huhu..lapar giler..

1300-1400:mamam kfc satok..pun bergaut mamam...ntam da kelas mok catch kol 2..huuu..penat giler beb!!!

1400-1900:kelas n mandi...n tido..asa mok patah kaki..hee

2130:jumpa bie ambik kek(secret Recipe blackforest)..n si bulat.(anak patung baru!!)

here some pic of the enyt.

bie kmk nok palg siayangi ngn kek besdae

Tok la kek i...heee

=

muka sempoi jes ..heee x kedak owg nok polah mask muka guna aising ya..haaa

ciuman tersayang k bie kmk..heee

anak2 jes..bambam pipo n si bulat~~~

Birthday,betrayal and friends...

2009-07-21T23:26:00.003+08:00

Haha..im officially and biologically 20 years old now..(gettin old already..huhu).
bak kata sele tersayang.."dah woman da ko jes"..Am i?hahha kinda frustrating nenga ayat ya..huhu..jes x mok tua..g mok jadi kanak2 riang(ya la tek!!)Tapi memandangkan suma padah perange g x berubah pun agak rasa kiciwa..(aei..padah tua salah..padah g kanak2 pun salah..apa ja la ku tok..heee)..as a conclusion nya jes is not a teen girl but not yet a women(cited from britney spears..hahah)
Anyway for those yang wish me thru sms ka,kad ka..verbally wish ka..guys,im so terharu(winkz ^_- )heee...this year kinda received a lot of wishes..mentang2 besdae 20an da..alu suma mok acknowledge ku da tua da..haaaa!!

Pagi besdae i escaped PBL and 2 morning classes to attend JPJ road exam..It was so much fun eventhough i gadoh with charles my instructor because some management problem..dah la byar mahal..Cant believe i become a victim..huh..JPJ there were so good,padah jak ko miak medic alu senang jak danya kasi pass..betapa berkuasanya status seseorang..Im not yet a doctor yet they aalready traet me as one..arigato ne!!

But then..got sms from joannes padah ku terpaksa tulis surat ke noorzaid ntam x datang pbl..I was shocked of my life when i found out my pbl mate betray me and told noorzaid im goin for JPJ exam!!We planned already thruout last week that we just gonna say im sick n i just need to pura2 sakit perut n get mc and give it to him..urghhh!!It wont be a problem if nOOrzaid is the pandai type..But since he is terlamPAu pande until miak medic xda cuti lam hidup daknya unless sakit..apatah agik ngn exam JPJ..But then today this morning Noorzaid told me he wont be here till next week..imagine that..i tulis surat penat2 and he sukati jer do like that..

HUHU..in a nut shell...hmmm..birthday thun tok kind aokay..no matter how penat i was..this is indeed an unique birthday for me..

ignOranT!

2009-07-16T22:01:00.002+08:00

aie...lamak da x menulis blog.ampun beibu2 ampun diucpkan kpd penulis sendiri..(antap bena x kesah ngn blog dmpun..huhu).BAnyak BenDa berlaku tapi...ya la tek..x kepingin bena mok menaip..(haha malas 80% NGN BUSY 20%)..dari bulan 2 rya byk la juak..

BTw..Jes da masuk 2nd year!!!(huraYYYY!!!!)pa jak la (maka dah mok hbs blok CNS buk mok umum!!)sekali lagi alasan busy diberi..hoho..2 minggu lepas junior baru dtang,terkenang kesah last year alu tym agi kekampongan tiba rah lot 77.kenak halau la tym mnedaftar.heee(kenangan yah!!)x sangka dah lebih setahun dah..next week besday jes..owh blog tok pun dipolah sempena kemasukan ke unimas!!(hepi besday to mere blog yg terchenta!!)

owh klaka pasal besday..emm ne nda kah rah post besdae nok lepas..bukan apa bha mok nagga list goal n matlamat (bukan sma Jak kah ya..hee).Dengan Bangga nya jes mok pDah..tym 20 JUly 2009..jes akan beusia 20 tahun n akan melangsaikan exam keta hari ya~~~(harap langsai la..hee)suma nok baca tok doa k jes dpt melangsaikan..hahha byk duit klua kowh..(mok 1500++ dasr kaki kikis intructor ya..huh)

tapi ya lah tek..emmm..mok esCApe kelas ya cgek g cta tok..bena padah owg Tua sekali kita poLah salah,smpe bila2 owg inGat bnda ya..Sekali jak escape kelas pyskiatrik r
ya trus kna aim kowh!!susah bna mok minta cuti..minta mC???dipertimbangakan..rya Melisaa bik idea gne Mok minta Mc haha(otak nang otak doktor wak eh..)gne??rahsia....

U.N.F.O.R.T.U.n.E ChilD

2009-02-25T09:06:00.000+08:00

its been so long i havent write..(wat happen??)...a lot of thing happenned..some sad,some happy,some hatred,some love..its all i can say life maturing process..

My study ...all i can say its getting tougher and need more of my time..couldn't say i dont have the time but i wasted most of the time.yet loving and caring someone isn't a right blame to waste my time..its just a routine .you have to pick up the phone .spending an hour to talk bout thing..some time nonsense(which is most of the time..) and these thing occured 3-4 times per day..kinda wasting kan..huhu..thinking rationally..emmm yupp its a waste of time..i should study and open books during that tym..but..these routine is crucial for my days..i dont want to change anything yet..it'll change by itself later..
while
hobby..apart from pick up the phone..i love cooking..one of these night..while having small fight him(kinda normal these days..the frequency getting higher!!)..i hve been thinking and wondering how does it like to have mother who could guide you in every stage of your life..my roomate called her mom every single day..am i be the same if my mom still around?every time getting the recipe from the internet,some sadness tingling inside me..other would only have to ask their moms to teach them..or to cook for them..i have to seek internet to fulfill my desire of what to eat..or going to pasar tamu..others have their moms to choose the right sayur or things with the knowledge..which one is segar,last long time..mine have to choose whatever there is..not having the real guru to help in life is sad.unfortunate..now i realized what unfortunate am i all this time.

laughing and ignoring is the best part i can do naturally.i always act like a perfect in everything .study,cooking..appearance ..others people actually think i have mother to guide me..some aunty would just say how lucky my mom to have me..well,she aint lucky enough..but the fact that im trying to proof to other is a very selfish part of me..in fact i felt jealous with others.they have someone there for them..throughout my life ,i been surrounded by people that have mother..and whenever their mother come to see them..i make blank face..acting im okay..but then ,i ran away crying alone..blaming why my mom died so fast..cant she wait till i grew old enough..

to all that have mothers out there..treat them nicely..God Cant Be Everywhere To Guide You ..Thats Y he creatEd MoThers..in my case ..both isnt here..

U....

2008-11-16T18:11:00.001+08:00

Yesterday..im goIn Out WitH Him Again..HAhA...Well, first thiNg come First lemme INFORM that WE DiscUss already Bout What HappEn(ala..yg 10 days Ago ya bHA!!!)..i TRy my VERy Best TO bE A goOd Gurlfwen To HIm...haha..a new azam..ngeh3x

haha..what i felt last 10 days (ala...yg xpat mok jd "REal Me" ya bha..) was not totally right..hehe..For THe fIrst Time Ever I realLy cOUldnt Stand Being aLOne..i miss his calls..i miss his Jokes..i miss his "sekda..sekda..~~"..a lot f thIngs remind Me of Him..alarm cloCk..pIPo,BAM2..ChiBi..The BIlls i kikis hIm..bUT what most remind me tO him is The keycHain..it was bought on the memoreable nite before THings went wroNG..HAHA(i who make thngs wet wrong..)it has the sentimental value..hahha..nyeh3x

Now,I want 2 promise him THat ...

I WoNT lie tO him..

i WonT makE Him Sad.mad..Sakit ati.i just want to make Him happy..

i woNt Leave HIm EVER.......until he himself want mE tO go Out his life..(pleasE DONT!!)

A LiaR's TruTh STory....

2008-11-09T12:47:00.000+08:00

hoho..i juz dont want ppl to read my blog anymore..(hopefully those yg remember my blog address,knock themselves down n got severe memory loss...o_0)..waaa jahat li jak jes..hehe..

why i dont want ppl to read it anymore???simply i juz want to write anything that i want ..without concerning what ppl think of it. definitely i wont write something nice laa kan..haha..But i`ll make sure i write some later..ngeh3x..

i think that its better for me to reminisce what REALLY happen past 3 months..i mean that what is inside my setan head..(im being very2 pentingkan diri weyh..huhu...)

remember end of July story??(wont forget it whatttt!!!)..a particular person(bOy la of cuz..) layan me so teruk (teruk gila kah??? mebi x but enuff to make me sedih n cried depan michelle..waaaa)..he might think that what he did its not that kejam..others pun (his ftriends laaa of cuz..) might think that way..why he layan so kejam? juz because i said i might goin out with another senior n indirectly dump him la(rasa nya ya kot nya pikir tym ya..)so,homeostasis ly..nya layan cmya laa k buang rasa suka tek kot..
p/s:eh..pahal aku paham indah keaadaan nya tok..hahha..after alot of muhasabah dirik worrr!!!

at my side of story..at that time ,senior was JUST a story k..(jes is way ToO good in MAking sTory Up!!)haha..truthfully, i HATE to be iN a relationship.....i hate KomiTmen..I jusT enter My Uni life n Got THousand OF MAsalah at that tym..(father,..aunty...stepmother...BOys!!!)..
Growing uP at My Precious SMSK..n one year at matrix REALLYY enuff to stimulate HAte toward DAmn -so-called Creature=Boys!!
Why i hate boy??its not hatred kot..juz meluat saja..haha,what word for meluat tek lam Bi??(bodo tek nak ..)

Lets go back to Smsk life..i admire this senior(the one i made story up!!)..since i was like form 1..unFortunately,he even not looking at me..Busy ngn GF lah..untill he left school kowh ku minat matii ngn miak ya..langsung x ditangga..i know laa..dahlah kasar kita tek nak..haha(besa laa..)..Then when im at matrix,hE STARTED to sms me..I was so happy that i told all my fRiends yg my dreams came true..Then,Shiit MAN ..DAmn Fucking sEnior Told mE he not With His Old GF yet PlayIng with new Gurl..haha..WhiLE sms me lg tu..Just anggap me as adik konOn..F.U.C.K!!!!!!)..hhaha..hehe,after all he knew my feeling yet still buat camya..B.O.D.O.H....why he cant see my feeling owh..i dont give a DAmn Fucking with guys like that..Since then ,no more i lIke him..Girl With The Face like ME Wont,Dont,n shouldnt DEserves the GuyS with ass lIke that!!!!

MAtrix Life..There one boy resemble mY senior ..the way he talk..the way he walk..really interested me..(after all..who can forget a 5 years crush kan..)..i dont plan on liking him..especially this bOy really Got SUPER EGO with him..wouldnt look at me laa..baaeekk punya type la(pious laa tek..)..hey..ilek laa jes,mcm x pnah x kna layan..haha..then,end of matrix nya pdh suka laa tek..Well,lemme tell u what..Almost one year at matrix kan..everyone Knows yg kita s**a satu sama lain..dO u think Confessing ur feeling at the tym i dont feel it right!!(it is not right..ne da jmpa g.. buk mok luah.).what do u think i feel...listening something yg kita dah tauk..haha..i just regret it..

uni life the same boy Confess again tHinking yg we`re at same unMas..haha..what is that..a desperation kah??? i suFFer a lOt during hOlidae(is it HOLIDAy nkah???)..n another confession from him make me feel yg im so malang..Truthfully,at that time i dont like Komitmen..im tired already concerning bout another person..Enuff with father laa..aunty laa..they all menagih komitmen ..n i just wanna have my Own Life when enterinG Uni..I just wanna be when im at smsk..nothing to burden of,so that i cn study again n finish my study n then when i wana have komitmen with my family..

But im the type very cannot tolak ppl frankly..(my weakness..iNherited From my father kot..)I must let them think that their decision is wrong by themselves eventhough i really cost my Good name to bE tercemar,..So i told him lIke that laa..And He started to aCt like that...such a way to blame me..haha..but I dont feel right..i dont want ppl to hate me continuosly like that espcaially that person gave my very mahal present,..so at least i wanna pay something good to him ..so i ask him to go out with me. then i got trapped..trapped till i dont know what happen..lying to myself till i dont know what my true feeling anymore..keep lying to Him n myself till when i woke up i live at my lie...he so gOod To me n keep me lying to him to make him happy..some how i still test him..I try To be as Kaki KikiS as can..(Hahha..what a characteristic..)..menangguhkan tym for declaration..just to make sure i have time to tell him the truth..i was planning this damn good..yet he so good n i ended up to become soft hearted..i dont wanna make him miserable buying things..huhu..dont be so good to me..if only he knows what goin on kan..

Then on 5th Nov 2008..while sending me back to hostel..he did something that ruin my plan ..really ruining my plan...really hate him for that..i spend 2 month keep scheming my plan carefully and he ruin it just in few minutes..something i aint expected..i couldnt get it back..what is this...i was lying n this is my punishment..to be stuck with him..he mght happy..but im not..but thats the thing willbe goin..thats when i told him the truth..i dont really know what he`s thinking..i dont wanna know..knowing what his thinking that make me fall like this..he still happy..i pretending again..
im pretending again..for as long as i can...lying is memenatkan..its painful to be with him..yet im stuck n i have to be with him..i wont buka my feeling but if he want me to lie...i lie...in front of him i couldnt be the real me..masking by my lie before n always..i just let my lie to become a true feeling..that the thing that i hop[e now..so i cn love him as true as i can..will i be ever to know how to love....

NoVemBEr AttaCkS!!!

2008-11-07T20:53:00.000+08:00

waaa...its nov already..
izit im gettin old..waa(Plus lotsa lemak..huhu..!!)
hmmm...wat to tell owh..
its juz the 1st week of nov yet many many MAnnnnyyyyyy things happen..
friendship..love..study..im gettin nO better jugglIng all of these..
huhu..help me puhleaseeeeeeeee??????????!!!!!!!!!

hehe..Geng parang!!(Attention..)
discussion kita kin hangat!!!(finnally thats are friendster worth for!!!))
hehe..walaupun jauh n jarang jumpa...kita still pat to know each others situation..
n which remind me of our friendship that wouldnt stray away..
GUYS!!!! I MISSSSSSSSSSSSSSS U all!!!)

wahahaa..somebody going back home this month..(huhu..SO SADDDDD> T_T)
No JEs!!wake up..be cam k??..its not like im not gna see u again..
but cn kah i keep my rinduuu for u......huhu..
hahaha..see here silly Jes goes again..wahaha
kin besar kin congek...
gneY tOk...(sapaa responsible hah?ha?)..

Study..hmmm..kin byk..kin mencabar..
da juak owg x phm akn ke-bz-an kita..(dont Worry..Bkn ktkowg..!!)
kmk diam jak mun owg pdah daknya bz g..tauk ba uni life mpun ..
TAPI.. mun owg ya pdh Kmk x buzy nang bulak Bena la owhhh..
lekak ya ngn muka ngekk g ya pdh daknya bz g..
well fine!!hambik kau sia mun mok gilak buzy tek nak..
tpi tido jak ober nya.klua uak ober..
hish..why berubah all of sudden..JELes kah???

haha..xda lah..kitakowg nok aca tok boh terasa k..
its not u guys..
at least la asa nya mun miak ya x gatal tangan baca blog owg..
rasanya x..nya byk gilak acc tek nak..fster lah myspace la..hi5 la facebk la..
berkawan lah sia.. x gago...

SEConD BLock:MAn n Env....

2008-10-29T20:05:00.001+08:00

wahaha...2nd block nang mencabar..
gagal kuiz....apa jak lah....
nang asa sakit ati giler..yet buk 3 bulan blaja...
BOH merungut Jes!!!!----Chaiyo2!!

byk giler mok blaja...
huhu..cgek lect slide 40 cmya..sehari da 4 lect...
huahaaaa..ne mok hidup ngn senang nektok..
block tok ada 8 weeks..
1st week blaja pasl malaria(mainly..protozoa ),acute n chronic inflamation...
k..tym ya byk masuk lab..still senyum gumbira nya...

2nd week blaja pharmacology..hmphhhh..da start kerut kit muka..
coz byk ngafal..hate ubat2...
3rd blaja regeneration n tissue healing..
huhu..mati jak lah mok ngafal steps n 5 pathological processes..
4th week neoplasm..cancer..n ubat2 juak..
OMG..somebody slow down kit bole x???huhu..last week mpunj lect lom khatam g..
kakya raya.fuhhh..kinda lega..
5th week microbiology,..
waa..many new info on types of infection..n bacteria mainly...
6th week..i hate ubat2(PHARMACOLOGY..)..
hafal ag 5 process antibiotic works on bacteriakakya hafal g mechanism bacteria ya lawan antibody..nangga slide penyakit g..
dahlah pensyarah ya gila seks..
mala jak ungkit gonorrhea..
7th week..virology g..
dolok protozoa n cacing kepada la bacteria nektok virus pulak..
da berpuluh2 da vocab penyakit lam palak weyh..
huhu...
8th week exam besaq!!..
result?????hmmm....

FAILING MYSELF......................

2008-10-29T19:57:00.001+08:00

the study become very hard nowadays...
huhu..tiap ari kelas 8 jam sehari...
lecture..laboratory..discusiion..pbl...tutorial..
formative assesment....
malam trpaksa revise notes pagi...mun x bertangguh keja..
then non stop ilmu disumbat..
pa nya igt palak ku pendrive ka copy n save jak..
huhu...i think im faking myself if im smiling now...
after all,blaja mok mati leput smpe termuntah2..sakit perut lah..
then the best part is,,..i failed my kuiz..
WTH.....wer did i go wrong...
huhu...

september n me...

2008-09-20T18:20:00.000+08:00

hoho..hi guys,,its been long tym i dont write(miss me huh???..hehe)
anyways,life gettin busier here..n i really dont spend much tym surfing the internet ..
i prefer choosing my petite-comfy bed to sleep instead of facing the laptop..(dreams seem much better nowadays..^_^)
august did turned up good this year(way too good larr!!!ngeh3x)..why?im celebrating independent day at the main campus as i joined perarakan there(penat gilerrr berjalan...panas g ya!!!)but,hehe,who knows i counted the coming of 31st august with someone that i cherished..(sapa ya????..shhhhsss diam jak mun tauk k!!hehe)..

september meh???emmm..so far thing goin smoothly..
i juzt got my 1st end of block(eOB) result..thnx God i pass it..hehe,..n i want to thnx friends who helped alot larr kan..(u guys..im really terharu niiii.....)together we face the challenges here..

talking bout friends..i really thankful that i got roomate after all..she happens to be the bezt roomate i ever got..we did alot of things together..washing clothes,cleaning our room n cooking everytym we get hungry(OFTENLy.....) talking bout cooking,i gain alot of new skills from her..n i never thought cooking tom yam would be very addicted things to do..hahaha(its my favourite dish of course..!!) yummy2_

so by time goes on i thnk life here goin to be very an entire lifetym experience..n i think ,im ready for it...till next tym thennn

2008-08-08T21:24:00.000+08:00

SMSKIANS TO KMLIANS
huhu..next story is bout me n my kmlians friends.
well,once a friendship started..they would never fade.
with all of smskians yang tercampak at LABUAN MARICULATION COLLEGE..

the story continues..

Apart from geng parang, others smskians got this very strong electrostatic bond between us.why????..well may be because we grew up together as friends..bak kata org tua..rahsia suma lam tangan..haha..a lot of memories we made at labuan..One year full with sweet things.

WAnt to intro all of them,might be a little hard larr(igt aku apa rajin kah)..hehe..well,lets just watch the wonderful memories of us...diz picture taken when we ate at tanjung ketam..yumm..yumm..from left judith,eton,debo n me.. after closing ceremony of emm(i 4got la!!) with the kml dikir barat..speciel appearance-zai n RAmdan..

another pic taken that nite..ramdan as juara..zai men gendang..with bibut,momoy,oja n tini

mintak berkat lok..hehe..this pic taken after smskians gathering(monthly!!) at ujana kewangan(UK). with miza, me, jn8, michelle, momoy, yen n bibut..

during kem jati diri kml..all the smskians here..with kak azimah as one of the faci.. ^_^.. saranghae..

during juniors cricket match at saen labuan..they won!!but we didnt see them play..besar2 suda mereka..

well,another pic that day..the cricket stick(ya ka?)..mak aih..berat giler..with amoy,miza,oja,eton n flora..

GO WHATTTTEVERRRR!!!..presenting CHeerlearder tEAm For whatEVER..SmSKIANs basketball team at kmL..WE woN.!!!Bkan senang ngalah kan miak mca!!hehe..MIZA..I remember that Shoot forever..The Only CheerLEader team uSing BAju KUrung!!SEmangat Ketimuran..haha

Another pic of chearleader team(different DAy..)Note that Debo Wasnt wearing TudUng Ok!!Tuala SApa nda kah ya..hehe..

CONFotmatiON CeremOny OF Smskians(RC)..New life..new name yet same perangai..x berubah-ubah!!presenting Gloria (apa??lupak..sapa tauk anta komen lak..)debra jane FRAnciNE..SAbatini CeleSTine..Michelle Crystal Lourdes..Yen as tini's Gogmother..Jn8 n Me=tukang begambar..

Those were the days when life is still full with laughter with you guys..i miss u guys..haha,now we are walking our paths differently yet if got oppurtunity,we can still refreshe our friendship..hahkz..if got any thing u guys want to add send me a comment ok..

contribution to friendalitos..

2008-08-05T17:41:00.000+08:00

hahakz..yea yea i got the time to write about those important people in my life from secondary to matriculation time..yup,..presenting the parangnianz and geng smsk at kml..

PARANGnIAnz......................................

we`re actually consist of 11 people..(wowo..so many!!)..well its not complete till we`re 11 in a group those days..hehe..Rite now,..em,we left our dearest school(SMSK Lerr..wer else!!) since 2006..its 2 years already kan??..feels like yesterday je..kwang3x..

Rite now..we still in touch with each others..though not frequently..(thanx to frienster!!!hehe)

leMme story a liltle bout them n their new life..guys,drop me a comment if its wrong ok?!!

Our taiko is GOlo,at smsk she kinda perempuan bidayuh terakhir but dont judge book by its cover owh..hik3x..ratu scanning dow..haha rite now she at UNImaS doin bachelor of mechanical engineering..huhu( her eyes probably blinking shiny rite now scan org...)hehe..u rock gurl!!

then come our setiausaha...SEle..she's at F6 now..being unexpected lihai at her school(u go gal!!)..she's very rajin lorr..n lucu also..i mish ur attidude..kwang3x..hope u still like da old u..hehe..go sele g0!!

now the bodygad..Debo!!..based on size la hehe..MZ universe ..kwang3x,.she act tough but it usually us who protect her in the end.aigoo,kuat makan..but very pemilih..no sayur allowed!!hahakz..stay cute gurl..

em,FiQie rite now at UTp doin petro engineering..(Gne asa jd org minyak??)..hehe,since SMsk time she always lihai dow..jeles i..kwang3x..kuat makan juga..hehe,thanx 4 da bizkut n keropok yah!!..emmm i wonder if she got any hensemudes boy there at utp..hahakz..

JAnet..lepeh..naga..ikan gonjeng(juak kah??)..lupak lah..too many nicknames.hahakz..dont play play dow..ratu bersukan geng parang!!hehe,later i tell bout match at kml..in another 4 years she gonna ganti puan kamariah lett..haha..hah ambik kau math sia...ngeh3x..or..mr taib??..hehe,stay mengancam k!!

then,Noor ..hehe now she at melaka with orang tersayang..hehekz..fully charging evryday la nie owh!! very active gurl n big apetite..amplang!!!!!i mish amplang..dont know why la but evrytym i think of her i think of amplang olso...huhu..u owe me amplang 5 bungkus kot??hehe

Next is susanna..olive of parangnianz..skinny,tall...gigi BESAR..wat else?..owh,dont pandang rendah..she's strong u know..fire bridgade represntative..Tukang angkat hose..wawa..hah..golo's kamceng in scanning boys(handsome ones lar)..now?at perlis..hujung msia tuh...kawen with siamese dont 4get us arr..

then,Tini..gentle..rajin..pembersih..creative..alot to describe bout her..hmmm.,she got love story i envy of..(teach me one day ya!!)..currently at unimas doin biotech..haha,those who want to eat large sayur or buah..go ask her consult..(not Now larr..)

SAdeline...petite..now still does..aigoo,she stucks at the body of a F3 gurl.izit??boh mohar..stay kiut..ngeh3x..now at ukm doin scence forensics...emm,i wonder we could be partner one day later..after i ter`kill' ppl,i send 2 u lar..hehe

Judith..emm,still honeymoon tym..intake dec of uitm,,very2 kurus..we used to call her tiang etc..pity,till she has to buy vitamin to increase her appetite..result:..emmm,waste money..u should cia me with those money larr..hehe

LAst but not least..me..i dont know wat am i should write here..guess u all could read bout me in my posts..

how to forget lovey dopey things??

2008-08-01T22:02:00.000+08:00

ends of july brings the bad luck to me and my relationship..huhu..when i looked back..july 2008 really bring me an entire lifetime experience..early of july the spark exist between me and him..day by days,little spark turn to love..(is it love what you called it??)..then out of sudden dont know where the mistake..by the final week of july..things didnt turn out well(so fast...)..i didnt get the chance to solve the mishaps...and the rest is history..when you started a love relationship,then you could call it as 'breaking up'..but,there is no relaionship to start with..we havent got to start anything..aiyohh...bad luck..i wish i have that kind of relationship..well jes..welcome back to the club..

lesson of the story:NEVER ever make a blind important wish..earth calling!!..huhu,wish he smsed me during that day..now,no more sun eclipse..

MY rOom 321c

2008-07-29T13:02:00.000+08:00

MY rO0M 321C

huhu..its the end of july already..when i looked back,there's damn lot of things occurred at July.HAppy Things,life-changing experiences,and most importantly is the start of my new life as university student..well this story is basically on my room lorlzzz..

the first step i took at registeration wasnt a good start actually,i got told to leave twice to change my attire.(no slipper i understand larr..no sandals??be serious la..its not just a sandal..its an expensive evado la)..huhu..then,i got a huge room without a roomate..of course la i grinned bout this..heh,yea yea..i always wanted to have a room for myself..but then,living single in a new place wasnt a good thing also lerr..i have to kemas kan it by myself.aigoo..twice i got running nose because of my room.so wicked room..

Huge room is like its space..boring,,dull..toleh kiri dinding,toleh kanan pun dinding..huhu,though i get to have two cupboard,two study tables but, like i said thats just it..Then,on the 2nd sunday of july,my brother in law brought me to pasar minggu satok..Thats when i saw these cute cactus n real flowers in one sections..WIthout thinking much,i just go there and buy 2 pots of cactus and 3 types of different flowers,.start from that week,i become the frequent client from the makcik there..i dont know why but everytime i added my flower collection,its actually motivated me to be more caring bout my room..I cant wait the next sunday to add another flowers,

.These things teach me one lesson bout my own life..Before this i really not into medicine or specifically biology..why??(its secondary school punyer story larr..)..then,without any motivation i entered this university life as medic student,then,slowly i learned and i found simple real life story of sick peoples actually motivated me to go on,,at least for the moments..Things that we dont like,if we could find little facts that keep our interest at those things..then maybe we could slowly able to like the things.

.like rooms lorr..from nenek kebayan's room to simple lovely puteri`s room..isnt that just keep us going..

my room also getting more and more equipment..i just bought cerek last week,its help me mch during breakfast(thanks sista!!)..hemm,i thinking of getting a hot plate(i dont la the real name but its some kind of electrical stove)..so i can cook..well,do hope that my JPA will enuf for it..hehe,this is getting interesting kan?kan?

my bed,..well since my birthday on this month,i got one HUGE teddy bear(so huge that it takes half of my bed !!) and a puppy doll(ITs nots just a doll.its memory lane!!)..so,my bed is one of my favorite spot at the my room.Now im getting used to sleep hugging both of them..hehe..so i`d like to thank the special person who bemurah hati to give me the patungs..(u know who u are baby..)hehe..

ok,enough with my rooms..till next tym..kui3x

aieee..dah tua..

2008-07-27T13:08:00.000+08:00

Aigoo..im taking a step higher on my age last 20th july biologically..personally,i don`t think that im a 19 years old already,there`s a lot f my wishes,goals that i listed my last birthday are NOT accomplished already.(t_t)..Hence,i have to renew those wishes n goals on my list again..(this is annually done) hehe..but before i`d only tell my friends and those who care to listen to me about my wsh..Now, i wanna tell whole world bout it..

List of JEs`s goals
1.To achieve a good result in my studies(annually renew!!)
2.To become less childish(MAture jes!!)
3.wise-decision making to be improved(i always like this..)

list of jes`s wishes
1.To spend more time with my loved ones (this will be harder by days later)
2.To be more concenstrate in lecture(huhu..no more talking~~)
3.Eat more jes!!..(i love this ..)
4.I want to take driving course!!(can i dad??)

those above juz generally annual year list..usually i have to check my monthly list..(so many list larr)

DAys in,,DAys out..

2008-07-13T00:14:00.000+08:00

huhu...hari hari kin cepat berlalu..rasa cam marek jak nait belon dri labuan ke miri lekak ya balit ke kuching..
terasa jwak cam marek jak jumpa orang tersayang depan mart matriks..hehe,susah juak owh mun orang jauh tok,xpat jumpa selalu.nasib ada pelan Digi..hah,friends n family yang byk membantu hubungan kami berdua..ngeh3x..promote ke.??..by da way,Digi nentok da Uni sim pack..Tym pg UNIMAS arya da booth daknya..harga??ada pelik ckit la..beli no besa rega rm8.50,tapi mun mok tuka plan bagi nok guna Digi yang sediakalaadalh Rm30..pelik ada jak,terus x jadi i mok convert plan..kita pun sayang juak ngan no lama..ne pat beli camya aja ninggal no lain..lagipun,plan Digi tok dkat dalam main kampus aja bha valid,..yalorrr..ini bermakna dekat kolej lot 77 saberkas xpat la guna no uni Digi tok...aieee sedih laa juak..

Mngu minggu orentasi selalu da ja kmkowg dari kolej perubatan lot 77 bertandang g main kampus UNIMAs..da ast time pasal mok ngato PTPTn..emm,buk terasa bodoh sombong dirik eh..duhal lamak tok aku langsung x tauk apa2 pasal bnda alah ya..cita nya camtok,..hari aku bertolak utk mendaftarkan diri ke FAkulti perubatan Unimas,aku dapat surat dari PTPTN,,beserta waran n cek m1500..dalam hati tek rpikir ala,kelak bole apply biaswa la,.hah,kinektok berkareh i mencarik duit k bayar buku2 medic..bukan seratus 2 tapi mok dekat seribu dow..aiee..cne mok ngorek duit sebanyak ya???tym pegi main kampus ariya nak..kedak orang budu jak x tauk apa2..even buka akaun g belum..hah,no pin BSN g terbeli..adush..senang li jak orang nok alert ngan benda2 camtok..atau aku sorang2 jak langsung x peduli bnda tok...terpaksa tunggu bulan 8 pg main kampus..aieee,leceh nar juak..salah dirik mpun..So guys,you all boh rasa dirik beruntung gilak..mun dapat apply bnda2 camya,boh ada terpikir akan dapat bnda bagus g dari ya..LAgipun,those yang apply JPA ka,mun dapat tawaran JPA,kompom PTPTN akan dibatalkan..BEfore tok ada jwak kamek terpikir mok apply yayasan SArawak mpun pinjaman tapi arya dak kawan padah only those who kena rejek by the PTPTN akan diconsider 4 yayasan SArawak mpun loan..dekat dibah tok aku ringkaskan agik pke senang dipaham oleh kitakorang..

1.juz buy the BSN pin no utk pendaftaran PTPTN(iboh lokek..setakat rm 5 jak)
2.Then you all online la 4 PTPTn..laman web saya dah lupak la..(actually,aku g lom on9,ne la aku tauk owh)
3.If you all acedemic lihai la ,apply for biasiswa..eg:JPA,Shell,Petronas..(cari lam laman web masing2..)
4.tapi mun kitak orang rasa ragu2 juak samada dapat x PTPTN(jarang la berlaku),try to apply for another loan
sesapa dekat sarawak n anak sarawak,kitak orang beruntung la..another yayasan negeri ka..

p/s:konpiden jak ngan dirik kitakorang sia..tapi boh konpiden asuk..huhu

A NEW LIFE..

2008-07-12T18:07:00.000+08:00

aie..buk jak second week jadi miak universiti..oh by da way,im doing bachelor of medicine at university malaysia sarawak..2 minggu tok penuh ngan orentasi.Orentasi xla bez gilak tapi kira OK la sebab nak,x teruk gilak kena belasah ke apa ka..buat kakak2 LO yang jaga mekowg dekat kolej perubatan lot 77,terima kasih giler giler..kitakowg nang the bez.(aie..kamek x bulak ko!!!)
teringat indah tym awal awal mendaftar..2 kali kena halau n disuruh tukar pakaian..(kantoi li jak x baca buku panduan mendaftar..hehe)..tapi ya lah,malu la jwak..ngeh3x
jumpa banyak orang la jwak..rami owg malaya berenang g sarawak utk belajar..dalam ati heran la jwak,kan?kan?..dekat malaya kan byk uni yang termashyur..mungkin atas sebab2 tertentu nok daknya mpun tauk.ekot gerek ka apa ka??tapi medic Unimas x kurang hebat nya,bukan mok membangga la tapi dah statistik pdah cmya gne la mok polah..hehe..
blaja lagu unimas..berlalak mok belagu alu lagu ya di jadikan persembahan...xda idea lain g ka..aigooo