so you were stranded 20 minutes at the office and came down saying how your fyp was still in midway and not progressing despite so many effort and time you put on it.and to make matter worse you have the final presentation next friday which means exactly 7 days ahead. i just kept quiet..deep down inside i was so ashamed of myself and guilty toward you for burdening you in such a day like this..i have license but too coward to drive in town..and i have to waste your time in helping me.if you asked me to to your presentation,i am gladly agreed.i have time,money,passion to do that currently.
the thing is, you are busy and want to play badminton to keep healthy and release stress..i agreed.you need badminton in your life more than anything else..i agreed though it might sting a bit.half of the journey we stayed quiet because the space were getting larger.but i decided to stay strong and be patient because if it helps you then you need to do it.so i said tomorrow we wont have to go out.you better do your fyp and finish up your assignment and get enough sleep.you seem happy and when i see happiness i was being hypocrit for im smilling watching you happy.
hypocrit??i know..when 3/4 of me wanted to bring you out and release both of your personal tension and the tension between us ,the other rest of me said this is for your future..and your future will hopefully still have me inside it..then it is important for me too.
today you woke up at noon,sleeping for 9 hours..i was relieved..you paid back your sleepless night.but mind me..im having headache for my menses.and im damn bored..when you told me you gonna played badminton again..it feel like rocks just fall to my head..do you have stress soo much that i even as your gf could not offer any solution to it?and while im writting this,it is not the only reason why i wrote..my head too painful to enable me to think and write..think?yes,im still thinking while im writing this..still erasing any exercebating things and only wrote the minimal of things..
